A High School Senior in No Control!

Good times for me!!

2006-04-14T09:28:00.000-07:00

While I am sad to report that my Spring Break has dwindled down to only 3 days I do have great news! Just now, after returning from my job interview at a small mini mart for a part time job, I am psyched to say - I MAY HAVE A JOB!!!! What's REALLY great about this job though is that it pays $8 an hour!! And for someone like me who's going through the last months of high school and really needs the extra cash, I really need this! My last job only paid like $6.50 or something like that, and that store was much larger than the one I will be hopefully at! Next week, I'll be called in for an orientation of some sort with the Senior Managers - yes, I am nervous about that! - but then by that following weekend, I should be looking into training!! Following this, Mom says that my drivers license is in order and a car so I can finally be getting around on my own! Yes, I guess, as it's said, good things do come to those who wait. Believe me, I've been waiting for a LONG time for something good to come around!

Well, that's all for now. I, unfortunately, have school work to finish but with the thought of the job and finally making some well needed cash, my spirits can't be brought down!

Almost Spring Break!

2006-04-03T17:28:00.000-07:00

This Monday (as usual) was uneventful but to know that this is the last week till Spring Break makes things better! Friday's a half day so I'll be a nice early start on my vacation. Unfortunately though, I have a big project for Western Civ. to do and my research paper for English is due so the work reminds me that I still have important things to do - not just relaxing!! That's all and I'll be going to bed soon so,

Friday at Last

2006-03-31T16:06:00.000-08:00

I'm so glad it's Friday, this week dragging on like every other week but it means just one step closer to Spring Break! My college plans also have been looking up, which has brought my mood right up. Today, I finally got the $25 check to my guidance counselor so I'm now guaranteed to take the Brookdale Placement test, therefore with the choice of Brookdale or Chubb Institute. I'm happy about that 'cause even though I love animation and would be getting a degree in that, I wanna do writing (like stories) and Brookdale might have those creative writing classes that I wanna look at. Who knows? I still have time to make up. Oh well, I am now off to enjoy my weekend of doing nothing!

Sunday, sadly...

2006-03-26T06:59:00.000-08:00

Ugh, again I do not look forward to going to school tomorrow, the weekend went by too fast like always!! Last night, a night I had hoped to see the spring musical "Bat Boy" (yeah, I know, odd name, huh?) at my school but that didn't happen. I ended up laying down to watch TV and fell asleep and by the time I woke up, it was around 7:30! I had a plan of getting there at 7 o'clock because as my friends told me, the musical had been really big and A LOT of tickets had been sold but if I was there early enough, I could get a seat. Nope, that didn't happen because of my stupidity - I forgot all about it until I woke up and saw what time it was and was like - and I missed out seeing something that really good.

Another thing that has been bothering me this whole weekend showcases my stupidity again. It started on Friday: It was after English IV was over during second period, a girl I know came over to me to ask me about something. She first asked me if I was planning on going to prom. I actually already had made it a thing in my mind where I wasn't going because unlike last year where I went single, I REALLY wanted to go with a date. I mean, it's my last year of HS and I wanted to make Prom a night to remember with a picture of me and my date and know that at least I wasn't one of those single people, sitting off to the side, sad while all the other couples dance to the prom song of the night - last year it was "I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing" by Aerosmith. I ended up doing that last year, sitting off to the side because I had nobody to dance with and it put me in the worst mood so by the end of that night, I found myself not enjoying prom AT ALL. So, for this year, I told myself that I wasn't going to do that to myself and even if it makes Melissa (bff) upset that I'm not going, I don't care. Unless it changed with somebody asking me out, I know for a fact that I'm not going. Well anyways, I told the girl I wasn't planning on going so she went on to explain that she was trying to set up a guy friend of hers with somebody for prom because he didn't have any date. She then told me his name but I don't even know the guy so I automatically told her no. She went onto say that it was alright and to forget about it and left.
I'm kicking myself right now because so what if I didn't know the guy? I could've asked to MEET him at least and see if we had anything on common grounds that we would enjoy each other's presence istead of just going because we were set up. Also, one thing I know was that a lot of my friends are going to Wildwood and that was another memory I wanted to have - going there and enjoying it with my friends, just hanging out and so forth.
Nope, by turning down the girl's offer, I pretty much have blown away my chance of having fun and something to remember - I'll just be sitting around on Prom Night, bored to death and when all my friends come back over the weekend, I'll be upset as all the girls show off their prom pictures and going on about how much fun they had. I blew that all way. All because of my stupidity.

So bored... :::sigh:::

2006-03-20T12:23:00.000-08:00

The weekend ended too fast for me and I had to drag myself to school this morning. Mondays are the worst, going in half asleep and listening to boring as hell lectures and lessons from the teachers - ugh! I really need my spring break to get here but that isn't until the 12th or so of April! HORRIBLE! Other than that... At long last, I'm going in for a job application - working cash register at the $ Store!! I can't say how long it has been since I last had a job but I need one. If I do get the job (hopefully I will) the place is right around the corner from me which is not bad at all and I really want the !! Over the weekend when I saw my sister I finally got the college packet to Chubb Institute. I'm so excited about that and it makes me feel better to know that I actually have that as a choice, not just Brookdale but I also want to take the Brookdale Placement Test, and I have two options. From what Kris told me, if I was to do Chubb Institute, it is an intense course - 5 days a week along with a certain number of hours - but I could be getting my degree in Graphic Animation (what I plan to do) faster than any of my other friends in regular college. What's even better is that when I take those course for Graphic Animtation, that's all I'll do. No Math or English! Just what I plan to graduate in! How good is that?! Even though I do (and most likely will) do the Chubb institute, I still wanna do Brookdale and expand my studies to what I want to do, not just Graphic Animation. Who knows?

Well, that's all right now

Almost There...

2006-03-16T12:02:00.000-08:00

This week has been dragging on so slowly, school has been an absolute drag. I'm so happy that it's Friday tomorrow, at last!! Nothing that I would call "interesting" has happened except yesterday, I looked in the mirror to see that my right eye was unusually red - pink eye, AGAIN!!!! But like last time, it wasn't like I woke up with my eye sealed shut so I had to drag myself to school.

But I can say that one REALLY interesting thing did happen today. After leaving Western Civ. with my bff Melissa , we were walking along when she asked me if Jill had been talking to me. Jill was a girl I knew from last year who moved away over the summer to Delaware to live with her grandmother. Now, I normally get along with a lot of people in school, mostly people I've known from middle school and we all are really cool with each other. But Jill was one of those few people I COULDN'T stand. To give you an idea what kind of person she was, she was an anorexic for a short period, was (and most likely still is) a nymphomaniac, AND a compulsive liar. She started so much sh*t with me, telling bs stories about me to my friends and bs stories of my friends to me, trying to split us apart. Almost everybody I knew couldn't stand her but Melissa who didn't believe she was any of the above. I avoided her at all costs because I had told a lot of my friends that if she even thought about starting stuff with me, I would FREAK OUT on her. Luckily it didn't come to that and she went off - this was 11th grade.

So anyway, when Melissa brought her name up to me this afternoon, I just shrugged it off. But just as she went to leave, she went "Oh, and she's engaged". I was sucking on a lollipop at the time and it nearly fell out of my open mouth. I pulled Melissa back and was like, "Would you repeat that? I must've heard wrong." Oh I didn't. THE GIRL IS ENGAGED! As Melissa explained to me and get this: the guy is 21 (Jill's 19 - yes, 19 and engaged!!) and from the way Melissa said it, the guy hadn't exactly popped the question but will get her a ring some time soon. Oh, even better, this guy she's only known for 4 MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Is she pulling a Renee Zellweger/Kenny Chasney?!?!?!?! Melissa is pretty pissed about the entire thing and told me right out that when she'd see her this upcoming June for graduation (Jill's coming down with the guy) she (Melissa) and her other friend (Robin) would have a few choice words for her.

Of all the things in the world that the dummy would do, getting married at 19-20 isn't one of the brightest and thanks to sister Kris, a reason she might be doing this is - GASP - PREGNANCY!!!!!!!
Oh my God, I could just see that - Jill comes over, looking all skanky like she did 10th and 11th grade - with boyfriend in arm and going to Melissa, "Oh Melissa, you won't believe it! I'm pregnant!!"
I know right out that if she said this to Melissa, Melissa would slap her.

Frankly, I don't care what that girl Jill does - it is her life and it's not like she's a friend where I would feel the need to intervene. But seriously, of the stupid things you could do, getting married at 19 to a guy you've only know for 4 months doesn't exactly make you the sharpest knife in the drawer.
Ok, that's all for now. PLEASE COME FRIDAY!!!!!

Back to the Real World >.<

2006-03-12T16:57:00.000-08:00

After a wonderful five days off, it sucks for me to say that I have to go back to the real world tomorrow - school. BLECH!! But knowing that I'm done with HSPAs, SRAs takes off a lot of the stress and I can relax, take it easy. I'm starting to look into colleges and I'm happy to say, maybe I won't just automatically go to Brookdale! At the suggestion of my sister after being told by my brother-in-law, I'm going to be looking into Chubb Institute!
Hopefully, it will all work out in the end and who knows!
That's all for now as I have to get ready for the real world again. BLECH!

NO MORE HSPAs!!! NO MORE HSPAs!!!!

2006-03-07T11:03:00.000-08:00

:::Doing a wild dance::: NO MORE HSPAs, NO MORE HSPAs, SING WITH ME! NO MORE HSPAs, WAHOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes, obviously from above, I'm in a fabulous mood. Today, I finally finished the HSPAs that I have loathed since last year. Like always, the HSPA was EXTREMELY hard and it's a miracle I finished each section within the 40 minute limits I had. But, offically, I'm done!!!

Even better, 5 day weekend awaits me - Hallelujah, SLEEP!!!

Great news involving my beloved sister Kris
Yesterday, after anxious anticipation, I found out what I shall be "auntie" too - A BABY GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so pysched and I know Kris and hubby Kev are too - I knew how much Kris wanted to have a baby girl and I'm pysched for her!! I am too - I'm gonna be Auntie Em! LOL

That's all the good news for my life right now for me and I'm really looking forward to a wonderous five days off

ALSO...I FINALLY LEARNED HOW TO USE SMILIES!!! LOL

Weekend at Last!

2006-03-04T11:27:00.000-08:00

I'm so glad it's the weekend right now. This week seemed to drag on and took FOREVER to end. But it's finally the weekend!! -^.^-
Next weekend I know is gonna be better cause the days I have off although I'm NOT looking forward to the HSPA makeup ::sigh::

I've been thinking about possible story ideas I could do but it hasn't happened yet but I plan to do it soon. O well, that's all that's happening and I plan to do this Saturday and Sunday. NOTHING!!

::high pitched scream:: VERY GOOD DAY FOR ME!!! ::high pitched scream::

2006-02-28T11:45:00.000-08:00

Obviously, today has been a good day for me. In my math skills class, I finally finished the stupid SRAs that I had to take after failing last year's HSPA math section so I KNOW it's official - I'M GONNA GRADUATE!! ::HIGH PITCHED SCREAM::

::Regains composure:: Erm, ok. That's enough of me acting like a psycho but I couldn't help it. After I failed the HSPA math section last year by MERE POINTS - 13 to be exact - I was SO pissed and the fact that I had to take these even more pointless exams called SRAs didn't help. But the SRAs are very important - next week, I have to retake the Math HSPA section, something that will have me sitting in the media center for FOUR HOURS - something I'm so not totally in for but I have to do it. Should I fail the HSPA makeup again, the SRAs are what come in and get me my diploma - they're what will keep me graduating so yeah, I've been taking those pretty seriously and altogether I've had to do 8 of them and get a perfect 3 on them. Believe me, they WERE NOT fun to do.

But today, I officially finished them so even if I do fail the HSPA makeup - I will try to pass though - I'm gonna still graduate!! To make things even better: because testing is four hours long and the days itself are half days, if you're a senior, you don't have to go in. I know for a fact that if you do, you'd have to sit in the gym for those four hours, doing absolutely NOTHING but watching volleyball or whatever to take up your time. Lucky for me, because my Math HSPA is on Tuesday, that's the only day I have to go in! I passed the two-day English HSPA with flying colors so I can stay home Wednsday, Thursday, AND Friday which happens to be a day the juniors will have to do a Science testing. I pity those Juniors! LOL. So with Saturday and Sunday added, that's a FIVE DAY vacation! ::sqeauls happily::

I actually can't wait for this week to go by because even though I'm so not looking forward to testing for four hours, it'll be a half day and I can just go home and sleep in for the next five days! ::Choir of angels are heard singing 'hallelujah!'::

That's all for now

What A Horrible Start to A Week

2006-02-27T16:37:00.000-08:00

Ugh, today was so bad! I felt like I was going insane in school! The periods took longer than normal and I just wanted to SCREAM!!! ... But that can be expected - almost all my Mondays are like that. The weekend went by too fast and I hate that! Classes are more boring 'cause the teachers are intent on getting the juniors on passing their HSPAs next week - and those classes in particular are my Math Skill and Geometry classes. Thank God I don't have to do English 'cause that's a two day thing. I'm even luckier - because I'm a senior, the principle herself said that because testing was like 4 HOURS, the seniors if they passed could just stay home!! Although I have only the math to do on Tuesday, I get two free days - that means more sleep for me!! WHEE! -^_^-

I've been studying harder as well 'cause I don't wanna risk my graduation for some stupid test that means absolutely nothing to me! I have to get my college application in so I have a shot at college and maybe a real career! Ugh, this week is gonna be SOOO long... -.-

Weekend at Last!

2006-02-24T13:04:00.000-08:00

It's finally the weekend, THANK GOD! There have been a lot of things going on and just haven't been up for writing. I'm just relieved to know that it's Friday. I'm bored sick cause my friend who I normally talk with hasn't been on ALL WEEK and I'm just curious to know where she's been but it's none of my concern. I've sent her a bunch of stuff, like the story we've been working on and I've wanted to know what she thought but no such thing has happened. Tomorrow, for this first time in over a year or so, I'm finally go start looking into jobs again. I'm going to a job convention and maybe possibly, find a job I could stick with and get some cash for myself and to pay my parents back. One of the other real reasons I'm doing that is my mom, who has been great enough to order my cap/gown, school ring, my senior shirt, AND my yearbook, right out told me: "Emily, you need to get a job". I so agree with her but it's kinda hard to find a job when you don't have a car...

That won't happen till tomorrow and goes through all day so I'm not gonna rush to get there - Mom told me there would most likely be times were it wouldn't even be busy so that helps. I'm just so bored right now. I WISH my friend was on so badly but I have no idea where she's been this past week - the last time we talked was like last Saturday. Oh well, hopefully she'll get on soon. That's all the stuff that's been going.

I Know It's Been A While BUT...

2006-02-02T12:28:00.000-08:00

Things have been crappy lately and nothing that I would call interesting has happened. That is, until today!

It started when I woke up to go to school this morning. As I was brushing my hair out, I noticed something and when I looked at my eye, I was like, "Is it me or is my eye really red??" It didn't hurt or anything like that but still, it was red enough that I noticed it. I went to my Mom and like I first thought - PINK EYE!! I've never had Pink Eye before so when I heard this - I was like WOW! I still went to school, with my mom telling not to touch ANYBODY and that she'd check it out this afternoon. I know one of the symptoms of course is that your eye gets really itchy - it did itch every now and then, not seriously that I did get through school but not only till I got home this afternoon that it's really started up and to make matters worse, my OTHER eye has started itching so now it's like - I COULD HAVE PINK EYE IN BOTH EYES!! >.<

Other than that, nothing has happened really. I've passed (but one) midterm exam so I'm pleased about that and starting next Monday, no more Sr. Health but Gym!! -^.^- I'm still trying to finish the next chapter to My So-Called Life but no luck... ~_~

That's all for now in my uninteresting life for now

The Joys of Senior Health!

2006-01-24T17:47:00.000-08:00

Again, today was a relatively boring day...that is until I went into period 11 Senior health! Yesterday, a woman from a teen health clinic came to talk to us about STIs (STDs) and such. I knew about this for about 2 weeks before and one thing I heard from my teacher Mrs. Hagerty was that the woman who would come was going to be showing us a slideshow that would have extremely graphic pictures. Man, oh man, she was right! The pictures, were SO graphic, it was just too gross for words! >.< And it reminded me how careful you have to be when it comes to that sort of thing - I could NEVER live my life, knowing that then would have to tell my partner about it!

Well, today, another woman from the same clinic but today was far more entertaining. The woman had a model of a penis and brought all these different condoms!! Who knew there were so many condoms?! Colored, flavored, EXTRA large...the list went on and on! The one that really made me laugh was the glow-in-the-dark one! The woman explained that the GITD condom wasn't made for sex (well, obviously to make it glow, the condom had a special chemical on it) but for more pleasurely things...like hide-and-seek! LOL

On a better note, I know for a fact that if I bring in one last extra credit assignment to my Enviromental Science teacher, she'll up my grade and I'll be exempt from my Final Exam! One less exam to worry about! I also found out how I did on my project - which happened to be SO crappy - I got a 100%!!! -^.^- Things just seem to get better and better - now all I have to worry about is passing!!

Nothing New

2006-01-23T11:41:00.000-08:00

What a dull Monday, like always, NOTHING interesting happened but I did finally find out from a friend how my teacher Mr. Gosewisch died - a brain aneurysm. I felt kinda relieved to finally know how he died but it's still very sad.

Mid term exams start this Thursday - UGH!! >.< - and I'm not really looking forward to that. The only good thing that comes out of it is that testing days are half days so I'll be out of school around noon! -^.^-

Other than that, nothing interesting has happened :: sigh :: I'm still working on my fan fiction story, just posting my sixth chapter in My So-Called Life. Two new reviews AND over 264 hits!! -^_^- I'm really pleased with that so it's all good.

The Worst 3 Day Weekend Ever

2006-01-17T11:44:00.000-08:00

The Martin Luther King weekend which I thought was going to be solely relaxing turned out to be the saddest and it's just gone done hill from there.

It first started on Thurdsay, actually. At the end of the day just before I was leaving, the announcements came on and EVERYTHING was being cancelled from detention to afternoon classes and clubs - everything. It occurred to me that something major must've been going on because they were calling for all teachers to an emergency meeting. Since I was leaving, it didn't bother me and I left, not even thinking about it till the next day. Once I got to homeroom and sat down for announcements, the first thing I hear from the principle is, "I'm sad to announce that Mr. Steven Gosewisch has passed away". I swear, it felt like somebody sucker punched me - I was in such SHOCK. Mr. Gosewisch was one of the Performing arts teachers, had taught chorus, taught Musical Theory, and had worked there for 30 YEARS! 0.0 My mom had him and it followed with my sister, Kristina (she had him for all 4 years she was in the school) and I had him my sophomore year for Music Theory (hard class!!). Still, Mr. Gosewisch was THE best. He was cool, super nice, funny, laid back, there was no way you could hate him. Plus, he was young, 51! - so when the principle said he was gone, I didn't believe it. There could be no way that he was gone but it was true... That day was the hardest, walking through the halls because everybody knew him so everybody was affected by his death. It was actually really eerie - the halls, which are normally so loud with people running and screaming, were SO quiet and people were just walking to classes or talking really quietly... First period was the hardest because two of my friends Joe and Cassie (who are in FPAC - the Performing Arts program that Mr. Gosewisch worked in) were there already and seeing them like that just broke my heart. Then, my mind went to my sister Kristina (if she's reading this - I LOVE YOU KRIS!! -^.^-)
and all I could think was, "Oh, God - how can I tell her that her favorite teacher has just died??" That's when I lost it and I sat through the rest of that class with tears or trying not to cry.

That was definitely a sad and hard day to get through, seeing everybody like that and just from the way it was, I knew that Mr. Gosewisch had touched everybody in a way and he's very dearly missed...it's never gonna be the same withouth him...
Once I got home, word of his death got around faster than I thought and my parents and sister already knew so it wasn't such a shock - but they too were hit by it. As I found out also that day, Mr. Gosewisch (who normally was NEVER absent - he got awards for his perfect attendance at the end of the school year) had been really sick just before the holiday break and had been having trouble getting to school on time - oversleeping and such, something that was so unlike him. I can only assume that the sickness might have been the cause and it never went away. The one thing I know is that even though it was sudden, he didn't die in pain or anything like that... Sunday was his viewing and when my mom, who went as well as my sister, returned with one of this little cards, I saw the date of his death - he died on the exact same day as my Uncle Peter did 6 years ago...STRANGE. O.O I had also heard from people who had seen him up close (it was an open casket) he had a conductor's wand (or baton...whatever you call it) in his hand and was wearing his glasses...

Today was just as hard, some of us still not accepting the fact that he's gone but it's true, I know that, it's just hard. Things just got even better when I FINALLY got back my HSPA scores, to determine if I'd leave or not.......I'm stuck. I have to do this whole class for the rest of my last year, take HSPA make up AGAIN and the SRAs just in case I don't pass the HSPA make up again...

I'm so pissed right now, I feel like I'm gonna rip somebody's head off if they even say anything to me...I just can't deal with all this crap: I lost one of my favorite teachers, I have to go through a class that I hate, and I have a project due on Thursday... I now really can't wait to get the hell out of this school...

What a Boring Day...

2006-01-09T12:19:00.000-08:00

Oh, the weekend went by too fast! Nothing happened in school today. I do have a couple of projects to do but they won't take me too long to do. It's been since FOREVER since I've gotten back to my fan fiction stories. One of them was meant to be a holiday story but I never got around to it so it'll probably be a Christmas in February story! LOL
I'm still waiting for the HSPA scores to come in and HOPEFULLY I will get out of that godforsaken classroom for something more entertaining!! The midterms are coming up pretty soon too so classes are going to be leaning towards that this week and next - need to be ready! I can't wait for this week to go by so I have a three day weekend. Ugh, that's all that's going on for now - I just got home from school a little while ago, my dad and brother left to do work, my mom's still out and I'm just bored sick!

A While Since Last Post!

2006-01-08T11:12:00.000-08:00

It has been a while since I've updated this but this week, there was a problem with the internet connection and I couldn't go online till today! >.<>NOTHING at all happened. It was a terrible, boring week!! I really can't wait for my Martin Luther King weekend - only three days but still, it's something! This weekend was fun, I finally saw my sister's new house, VERY NICE! ^^ Still, this weekend has gone by too fast and I SO don't want to go to school tomorrow. Thankfully, the internet is back up so I can salvage what I've missed! That's all for now.

Back to the Real world...UGH

2006-01-02T14:40:00.000-08:00

Today was such a horrible day. The fact that my Christmas break has ended and I'm back to school is just another bitter reminder that I have to get up at 6 o'clock again. >.<
Haven't gotten my HSPA scores back and that just adds to the pressure and stress if I'm ever gonna get out of that stupid assistance class!! Coming back has also reminded me of how much crap I have due in the weeks to come and in every class it seems! Projects, homework, and mid-term exams...GOD SAVE ME!! ;_;
That's all for now since absolutely NOTHING happened today and I'm SO bored!!
What a crappy way to start the new year!

What an awesome Christmas! ^_^

2005-12-26T09:52:00.000-08:00

I had a fantastic Christmas day...but I'm so sad that it's gone by now! LOL
I got some really great presents - a lot of things I asked for so I'm not complaining! Great Jay and Silent Bob DVDs, really nice sweaters (I can never have too many sweaters ^^) a REALLY nice black peacoat which I've wanted for so long, and a LOTS of bubble bath soaps and body lotions! ^^ I'll be smelling pretty good of violet and whatever else the flavors were. ^-^

I'm so happy that I have a week off from school cause I really need it. In the week that followed this Christmas, I got absolutely no sleep and was so busy, worrying about what to get everybody and I had SO...MANY...FREAKING...PROJECTS! >.< It was horrible but it's over and done with ^-^.
What also sucks really bad is this year, I only have a WEEK off from school! I normally have like 12 days off or something like that but because Christmas fell on Sunday this year and New Year's Eve is on Saturday...UGH!

I'm in a slight state of anxiousness because once I get back to school next year, I'm suppose to get the makeup HSPA scores and if I passed (I'm hoping to God I did) I'll finally be able to get out of that stupid Math Skills class and take an elective! But if not, I'll be stuck in that class till the end of the school year, taking the SRAs so I can graduate! I'll be SO pissed if that happens cause this is my Senior Year! I wanna take a break after 4 years of endless babble and enjoy it. I still need to order in my cap/gown, my yearbook which I do really wanna get hopefully cause once January is over, it's gonna be $100!! I have prom in May AND the Senior class trip in May as well. It's gonna cost A LOT for all of it in the end but right now I'm more concerned on the cap/gown which I really need. I mean, if I do graduate, what am I gonna wear?? Since Christmas just ended and we spent all that money on gifts and whatnot, I'm gonna wait before I tell Mom about it. I know she knows about the cap/gown but I can wait on the yearbook and in the end, I hope it works out. The more I think about it, I can't believe how fast my high school years have gone. I remember the summer I was going into my freshman year, my family and I were on a camping trip and we were talking about that. My sister told me that it would go by fast but I didn't believe her. Now I do! I'm SO amazed how fast it went and that this is it. It's really sad actually cause once I step off that stage in June with my diploma (hopefully) most of the people I ever knew, I won't ever see again probably but maybe not until the Class Reunion ten - twenty years from now, if that even happens. I'm trying to picture where everybody's gonna be: me and my best friend Melissa will be talking, I know that for a fact. Everybody will be in college all over the US and going on with their own lives on their own. I know I'm gonna be here in New Jersey for the rest of my life, going to Brookdale once school ends and that's that. Probably getting married and starting a family here, who knows? I also try to picture if any of the senior couples will be together still but it seems unlikely 'cause they always say that high school relationships sometimes can't weather the real world. The only one I could actually ever see is my friend Grant and Deanna but Grant is such a flirt! It will be hard to say goodbye but I know one thing that's true between me and a lot of my friends - if we could replay high school all over again, we would. LOL. I would like it to be that way, if it could happen. Maybe things would be different if we could replay it all over again...

All I know is, I want this year to SLOW - DOWN! LOL. It's already almost half way through the school year! I know I'm not ready to say goodbye to my friends but it's not that time yet so I'm gonna to enjoy what I have now cause once high school's over, it's a whole other ball field with college and the real world!

That's all of my sappiness for now.

The Weekend is Here!

2005-12-23T12:18:00.001-08:00

The weekend, AT LAST! I am so excited right now, I can't wait for Christmas! ^_^ I have no idea what I'm getting but I hope it's good! Today was such a throw away day in school. We did nothing in classes whether it be watching movies or just hanging around. I traded gifts with my friend Nesrin and she gave me the coolest gift - a 2006 Inuyasha Calender! It's cool to have a friend who shares the same interests of music and television and everything else.I gave her burned CDs of her favorite music and she love them both. It was fun.
On a sadder note, I found out that my Aunt Shirley died this week. It was a shock but then thinking about it, I heard that she had been sick for a while and was dying so it was a sudden thing. Still, what makes it so sad is today is the viewing, which both my parents just went to, and tomorrow's the funeral. A funeral on Christmas Eve! I could NEVER deal with such a thing - losing somebody right around Christmas because it would be such a sad reminder and it'd be hard to be happy. I'm not going to the funeral because even though she is family, I didn't know her that well. I'm not that close with that side of the family even though they live right around the corner and my Mom thinks it'd be better if I didn't go. I know already that even if I didn't know who Aunt Shirley was, I'd fall apart during the eulogy. I did that at my Grandma's brother's funeral and I didn't even know who he was except that he was my Great Uncle! Even though I hate it when I get like that, my Grandma told me that it was okay, that loss will happen in my life and all you can do is move on with your life...
I'm just hanging around. Tonight, at some point, I'm finishing my Christmas shopping and tomorrow after my Mom comes home from the funeral, we're heading over to my Grandparent's house where were meeting everybody for Christmas dinner and opening presents. Then, my sister and her husband come home with us and celebrate Christmas morning with us. I can't wait and I'm so excited! That's all for now.

So bored.....

2005-12-20T13:55:00.001-08:00

O man, I am so bored right now it's not even funny! Just talking to friends online and playing around. I just want this week to go by fast! Tomorrow, I have to teach with my partner Danielle in Child Development to the kids about the holidays and I'm so nervous about that too. The kids are 3-years-old and I'm just so afraid I'm gonna do something wrong or forget something when I walk out the door to go to school....Western Civ. with Mr. Hein is no better because we have this big power point project that's 100 POINTS on our grade due but I don't power point on the computer so how the hell can I do it??? I wasn't the only one in class who complained about this but no, Hein was being a complete jackass and was like, "Then stay after school or go to a friends. You don't hand it in and you get 100 points off your grade!" Hein is a nice guy but I swear, there are days I really hate him and this one of those days. Thankfully, my Mom doesn't agree with him. She got really pissed when I told her what Hein said and told me, "If he has a problem with you not having power point, then I'll talk to him personally about it." ^_^ Mom is the best when it comes to school problems like that! Also, tomorrow I have a geometry task in my support Math Skills class. I HATE geometry and just don't get so it'll be a miracle if I pass the stupid task tomorrow. My other Geometry class is no better. I completely failed it last marking period and I'm trying to get through it this time around. I hate the teacher in that class too! She can't teach for bull and ugh, it's just a terrible class, especially when the teacher can't teach! Every other class seems okay. In Enviromental Science, we're watching The Day After Tomorrow with Jake Gyllenhaal but the movie is so overdramatically, unrealistic (tornadoes in Los Angeles and a tsunami taking out New York?! COME ON!) and badly acted that I can't stand the movie and the actors...well, except for Jake Gyllenhaal who is so HOT so it doesn't matter if the acting is bad, I could watch him anyday! LOL. ^__^ I've been working on my Fullmetal Alchemist story Under my Skin on fan fiction. Lots of hits of but not many reviews. Though I do love my loyal reader and IM buddy, Starwing217! We chat back and forth all the time, giving each other tidbits on making our stories better which is so awesome. Hey, if you wanna check it out, here's the link: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2691874/1/ since I'm trying to spread word of my story and if you like that, I urge those to read my other story, an Inuyasha story, My-So Called Life here:http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2617767/1/ . I haven't finished the Inuyasha story cause I wanted to have a Christmas story for the holidays so I took a break. Once the holidays are over though I'm going back to Inuyasha! ^^ I still have Christmas shopping to do, ugh... but I need to get it done eventually one of these days! I so can't wait for Christmas. I can only imagine what I got! I have other things to do so I leave it right here.